FORGIVE AND REMEMBER

Nothing compares to pain inflicted to you by someone close to your heart. It feels like you'll be scarred for life because of the hurt.


I am an entirely different person. My thoughts are different from your thoughts and I find this as my problem that's why I am misunderstood by everyone except certain people who have the same situation as I do. I am very sure that people would say that truly TO FORGIVE IS TO FORGET. To be honest, I find this statement too IDEALISTIC. We aren't perfect people to do things perfectly. We are just humans.


I remember when I was in grade school, I first read the quote “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” -Maya Angelou which I never understood until I had an actual experience wherein I forgave but I never forgot.


Remember the first time you felt betrayed? Did you forget the feeling? I do remember it but I cannot forget how I felt. The first time I felt betrayed was when the person I cherished the most told a lie to me. When I knew that he was lying to me, my bones felt weak. I felt my blood rushing so fast, so high. I didn't know how to react and how to feel or if I should even feel anything at all. Numb.


For few days, I thought of the things that happened. The situation bothered me so much that I didn't want to see that "cherished" person of mine. I made ways not to see him or even have a glimpse of him. Believe me, those days were the worst days of my life.


I got tired of being mad. I felt so consumed by my anger that I forgot about more important things. I decided to pick up my phone and stop the war that messed me up. It was just a 3 minute conversation and then we're fine. Yes, we forgave each other but see, I was able to narrate to you how everything happened. I never forgot how I felt that day because if I forgot it I may not be carrying the lesson of forgiveness.


It is not necessary that when you forgive, you immediately forget the experience. You decide if your experience will shape and construct you or if it will break you and destroy you. Sometimes we need to be destroyed for us to learn our lessons. This is true because life is not always good. As for me, I choose what I think is best and that is to remember the past but not dwelling on it because by this I will have a constant reminder that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.